can i express everything...my mouth cannot move on the moment... the legs suddenly disobeyed me, moving hardly. It seems that there are something holding me to move forwards... But it is so wired that I cant also move backwards...What the hell is it?It is better to annoy it.

"will u move ?"

It is useless to bait at me... it is because I deny to move... How hard u can push on me and how much i can let u down totally...I believe that my words which i have told someone is no an excuse but a process to make me understand myself well from day to day.

I can give u my words...dun worry for me Mom, bro and..and..and my dad...I wanna to reach !8 year ago le...I am still like Shit sticking on the laziness all the time...Let me myself independent ba..I wanna to see how worse am i now...i wanna see the death of another independent thinker how will he treat me terribly... so damn!!

Well, I started to understand that I am the one who quite hate to compete with people... "you want this ma? thn take it from me ba"...u like my gal ma? so go chase her la ^^"... U wan to leave me ma? thn go ba=]"....haha, it is I am ..hehe... People who dun understand me will tease me like coward la, chicken la, pig la and more... Anyway, I seldom refuse people's request to me... I feel unwell to say NO to them...I feel that if people are happy if i have done it to them then i will also happy d...what for u ask me to compete v them and win them fianlly i gt what i have bt are they happy ?so i am very friendy to everyone if they dun shoot my weakness...

However, this world is unfair... If i dun compete, who gotta to protect my family, friends and my lover?So i have to be stronger thn everyone...To protect someone, means to hurt another....this has become use in this world...who dun like will be kick out and never be the head...even through how i dislike i have to accept this fear... it will make sense for me to grow maturally... I will grow one day and take the duty from my dad..I wanna to tell my dad something:" whether what kind of job i gt, i will protect This family and new family members whom will come in to this family ...I dun nid any motivator but CHALLENGERS...

characteristic is depanded on situation.