Hate Hate Hate

Hate to be 第三者。。。

If u accepted him to be ur boyfren and u muzt only love him...if not he will be sad...


I decided to suffer alone thn both of men suffering together...

我会好好过的。。。

I cannot do something badly to chase you back...

May be I am too kind...

Please and dun give me a chance to feel that i can chase u...

a few of frens told me u have a new boyfren...

I did not trust

However...

more than 10 ppl even my best fren told me about that, it is true...

I have to believe and accept...

i wish u all the best

Dun worry me..

i will be okay..

dun feel "kolian" to me...

i hate this!!


To me..

i would not give out u...However..

I dislike to destroy ppl's happiness

because...

I hate to be 第三者!!!

=[

Sorry...

wish to continue

Today when waking up, i was still lying on bed...Thinking off last day memories...Ya, It was happy extremely and extraordinarily to take photo beside her again...haha...At first, I didn't sit around her. After a moment, I was intending to be her side...well, No doubt,No second thinking...I left my position and went back to my bag to ready then asset...Go!!...Ya, I really sat THAT place!!Whom was pushing me?I did not know.However, I think I have become a little brave after knowing the "SECRET", A popular book which mushroomed all of the world.

I am not sure what will happen in future, but i wish to continue^^

Last day, Benny gave us a psychometric testing to discover our real ability and career...There were three parts of sub title and one part contained 4 questions..the sub title of three was Heart or Head(1st), Extrovert or Introvert(2nd) ,Facts or Ideas(third)..As a result, I got Heart, Extrovert and Ideas. He showed us the result consecutively...My characteristic is Fun-loving, Optimists , passion and facilitative. My suitable job will be writer, musician, EDITOR and designer

Well, I wish i would not be neither writer nor designer one day...I am not the best in music world although I have flooded with my friends who know music...If next time i have the chance to be the best then i will think about it=]

another one, I quite like to edit something by own...I edited the ticket completely( the concert ticket)...Anyway, I enjoy editing...Sometimes, i could comment the film which was performed not well..I meant there was lacking of something...I always curious when seeing people editing the music or song...I often dream to have my own video edition...Ya, I have one in my mobile phone but my handphone sudah rosak jor le=[...if i want to do it.. i will ask my friend, Eric about it because he is pro in that stuff

By the way, I am not fully agree with my teacher...may be there are some jobs i can do better..It is just a test right?...through from the heart will have a real answer as same as my love, I trust her with my heart recently...Actually, I was thinking to give out her but i did not do it because she gives me the feeling specially and only her can give me this feeling...nobody but her..It is true!

haha..Later wan go out with friends le..I always wish one day i will have the best "Bahagia" in the world and i know only her can give Me. I wish she can accept me going out with me after i invited her

I have learned from last day..to be braver

Quite impressed

From day to day, I have been telling my friends around me about whom i am loving and it is crazy!!it is more than 10 people!!The people who know:

Eastlife - Alvin Lim, Shayne Koay, Alice khaw, Eric Chew

Band members(f5) -Ng Wei Tung, Melody Chiang, Brandy, Ky, Loke Xin Yi, Jolene Koay

Friends(f5) - 47, Teng Ding , Shun Min, Pei Pinn,Chun Yi, Ching Hou, Joyce, Jolin, Joel, Sim Xin Hui, Tan Chong Sheng, Ah Boy, Jia Wen, Siew Mei, Tian Peng, Xiao Xian, Chun Jing, Yee Ching, Wee Thong, Kun Guan

Ex members - Song Wei, Shu Yik, Chong Jie, Sook Kuan, Alwin, Yung Li, May, Juanita?

Other band Members - Chen Tong, Chan Khye, Yee Mei, Rabecca, Jia Hui, Wei Qian?, Small Alvin Lim, Lisa , Sze Ting, Jean, Stella

VIP - Sow Zhao Sean , Mr Song(Ah Sir)and MOM?(she saw the picture at my room)


Oya, Still have one more person has not counted in. He is a VVIP and he is called

" Steven Sow Zhao Wen"

My way - never give out!!

Hey you,silly girl!! I made a change to myself for a better man but


i will not give out to love you!!



It is because this is my way of the attitude!! Never give out!!

I promise myself i wont go back to my world!!!


I am running out of time man!!!

It cant be!!

arrgghh!!

Start over

This year, however I like it, It has happened something terribly and I really lost my way to chase my dreams. Instead of becoming mature, there are more horrible and challenging situations keep coming until i could not breath for a couple of months.

It was all my fault!! I was too playful, I ruined my bright future!! How dare was I...

Suddenly, I realized how important the language subjects is it...The past of mine was thinking about the economic subjects were vital...This year have learned a lots mentally...

Last Friday, I went to Bell tuition center, Benny Khoo taught something special...He told us,"Have u had your future career?"thn he continue to bla bla bla..." Do you work for H&h?"(Big Capital h or small capital h).It means You intend to find that job u want due to your H(Heart) or h(head)?

His wisdom has told me that he was right...If u work with your head, you are planing to earn money and not dedicate to the duty...At the end, u will have anything bt perfect...

To have perfect ratio in life, is to serve your job with your heart and passion. It will turn out the good result which u never ever think about how special u are my friend...Then, Money will automatically flow in your pocket...Work with passion is essential for any leaders...

Everything must be done with heart so that happiness will be here for us...

Hope and Dream are inevitable...To be succeed, they have to stick together and they will produce many good quality of personal attitude such as Determination and hardworking...

I have started over again since I dropped again this year...I guarantee i might not know what would happen in future but I can prepare myself to a better man...

Tody i learned to be more open minded..The first lesson of the "One"